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The Purity of Shame

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Help Out,

My instincts scream at me as I watch my sister struggle with yet another chore,

Lend a hand.

Is my craving need as yet another errand has to be done.

It shouldn't matter if I'm not getting anything in return.

And it didn't...

                     At first.

I sunk below every level of acknowledgement until I was down to being labeled 'lazy' and 'ungrateful.'

For every thought not vocalized, was yet another punishment of praise mixed with deceit,

As every 'Thank you' was poisoned with rolled eyes and a disparaging tone.

I took it all in with closed lips until I burned in the purity of shame of not saying everything.

I'm still ashamed that it took me to a breaking point to decide that I was worth more than your snide insults and dirty looks.

But I guess everything is alright now.

After-all...

I hear that you won't be holding that against me anymore...
Starting to get over this part of my life but it doesn't help to hear out of the blue that someone who treated me so harshly has the nerve to claim that they are no longer angry with me....no longer...angry with me....for removing myself from the situation....that's all kindsa special.
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OfOneSoul's avatar
An impressive, well-worded, thought-provoking piece. Wonderful work, dear! :clap: